pausing in cosmic reflection ...

over the past 15 days (i lost 2 crossing the international date line) i have had an amazing time waltzing in and out of the lives of people who i love and care about at different moments and different circumstances with differing effects. i got to surprise my mother in an airport in maine that brought tears to her eyes and urine to her bladder. i got to go to a wedding that i so desperately wanted to attend and didnt think was humanly let alone financially possible, but because of the help only an older brother can provide i was able to see lauren and r.a. get hitched. i got to visit the place i hold dearest in my heart - great pond in belgrade, maine. this is the lake that my family for 4 generations has been coming for fun, for recharging the soul, and for letting go of pain, grief, and anguish. it was really special to be there for a full 7 days! i also got to see a lovely lady glowing in her transitional phase content with life and full of joy all the while running for mayor of her new town. her love of life and joy were infectious and encouraging at the same time. i also got to visit with the old man who has of late been down on himself, and i was able to pour a bit of that love that i get from the source (god) into him and his life like a son is supposed to. gran on my moms side is doing to hot (shes in her mid 80s) so i brought over some croissants and coffee for a little morning get together and i got to take a stroll with her and her dog around the block. and then in my last hours of time in the us of a i got to pick my younger brother up from the airport after a successful lacrosse camp and i was able to share in the excitement and college talk with him and my step dad over some chicken wraps at a nondescript airport hotel sports bar while clock watching for when it was my time to leave.

thanks guys. i feel really loved, encouraged, and totally focused. cannot wait to see everyone again - plus all the folks who i didnt get to see.